Two Years This Month

April is the month for both my son's birthdays. This month will mark two years since I've seen or talked to them. Their mother has remarried and I'm sure they are all happy with their new 'dad'. Which is precisely what she always wanted. To take her children and find a new/better/different father for them. One that had no interests in anything other than what she wanted him to have.

I wonder often if they ever think of me. I know that I think of them every day and say a prayer for them each night as I used to do when I tucked them in bed.

Finally said my piece with my daughter back in February. Since I couldnt get a face to face with her to say it I responded to an email that she sent asking for help with a project for school. I'm sure she wasnt expecting to get the response she did and I've not heard from her since. That email probably was forwarded to each member of the freakshow that he mother calls a family for comment and disection. I am past the point of caring what those people think or say about me. And before I reached this point my concern was only in trying to manage what was said to my boy's about me by them. But it became evident that no matter what I said or did their mother and all of them were going to paint it in the most negative light possible.

But that I had taken my Father's advice back in '87 and divorced her when I only had one child. Where would my life be now? There's a thought!